Profound Thoughts

Trauma messes everybody up but maybe that's the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap maybe going through all that is what keeps us going forward it's what pushes us maybe we have to get a little messed up before we can step up.--Grey's Anatomy----Never thought I'd get a profound though from that show. :)

We serve a God who does not consult our past to determine our future. WOW!

"Shoot for the moon even if you miss you shall fall among the stars"

Maybe I can't stop the downpour, but i will always join you for a walk in the rain.

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

I believe in the sun. Even if it doesn't shine. I believe in love. Even if I don't feel it. I believe in God. Even if he is silent.

Friendships born on the field of athletic strife are the real gold of competition. Awards become corroded, friends gather no dust. --Jesse Owens

I have told you this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world. ~ John 16:33, NLT

For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! ~ 2 Corinthians 4:17, NLT

All the Broken Pieces Continued

So I am feeling like I should elaborate on the song I chose for yesterday. On Sunday, Pastor Ron's sermon illustrated that a woman should be treated like a precious, priceless vase. Unfortunately, sometimes we women are treated like a cheap tumbler, tossed around, thrown and worthless. I feel like the glass vase that has been dropped cracked and then finally shattered. After hearing the song and praying for the 3 hours to Canton and back, I feel like Abba's holding the pieces. He's gone into his studio and is working to put me back together, even more beautiful than before. I have a vision of a beautiful mosaic vase. I am so excited to see what the future holds as this new thing takes shape.

All the Broken Pieces

As always God blessed me on the trip to and from Malone tonight. I am constantly amazed at how He reaches out to me in the words of songs, even secular ones. As I listened to the songs that came on my Mp3 player as I drove God was saying daughter I'm here and then All the Broken Pieces by Matthew West started to play. Right now I feel I have no more tears to cry but I know God is in control. He called to me through this song and I gave Him the shattered pieces of my vase I know only He can make it whole again. Here are the words...
All the Broken Pieces by Matthew West

Did you feel, feel it break
From all the weight of your mistake?
You never knew how much it cost
Feels like your innocence is lost

So much for the perfect life
So much for the perfect day
It's like no matter how you try
Perfection's just too far away

So lift them up to Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

To Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces

Did you hear what I said?
Did you read the words I wrote down in red?
I was broken once for you
And no one loves you like I do

And that's the beauty of this grace
It can put the pieces back in place
And shine reflections of forgiveness
In a million different ways

So lift them up to Me
[ Matthew West Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

To Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

'Cause I can take even your greatest mistake
Every scar, every tear, every break
And I can turn it into something
More beautiful than you have ever seen

So lift them up to Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces

All your broken pieces
I'll put them back together, yeah
Are you broken, are you broken?

Just lift them up to Me
All the broken pieces
Give all the broken pieces of your life

To Me, yeah, yeah, yeah
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

Lift them up to Me
Let Me carry you
I will take your pieces
And put them back together

Music-I Am Not Alone

So I'm going to start posting songs that God is using in my life or new favorties or songs that are affecting me at any given time. If you know me well you know that music is a huge part of my life. You also know I'm in a very dark time of life right now. I decided to clean tonight, long yucky to do list. I thought I'd crank the music while I did this, might keep me moving :) First song when I started my player was I Am Not Alone by Natalie Grant. Here are the lyrics:

You are here in my heart,
youre the light that guides me through the dark.
You walk beside me,
the night seems cold each time I fall,
Your arms are there to hold.
You walk beside me, giving strength Ive never known.

And I am not alone
You walk beside me.
(I am not alone)

You are here in my mind,
I talk to you and all my fears unwind.
I know Im loved, for who I am,
You make me want to be the best that I can.
And you walk beside me, giving strength Ive never known.

I am not alone,
You walk beside me.
I am not alone
whereever the road leads.

And I rely on your patience,
when I face the unknown.
And because of you, I am...
I am not alone...
I am not alone...oooh
Youre always beside me, yeah, I am not alone.

In the sun, In the rain
through the good times and
in the pain.
Youre always beside me,
I reach out for your hand,
I know that you understand.

Winter to Spring

So yesterday was a very long day for me. This week has been long too. If you've talked to me in the last few months you know that I've felt like I was personally in a "winter" in my life. I've been looking to Spring for oh so many reasons. But we all now how Ohio weather does this time of year record high yesterday of 70s and overnight we dropped 40 degrees to wake up to 30s. As the Ohio weather is in flux so I feel I am at the moment in my life. I've felt like I have one foot in winter and one foot in spring. I decided to share a wall message I received from my friend Jenny sums up where exactly I am in this transition at the moment and encouraged me like you wouldn't believe :). I do covet prayers right now that I can fully lean on God's strength and not my own.

"Hello! I've been thinkin' of you today! Isn't this a great time of year SPRING! It gives hope for the future. It really gives me a LIFT. No matter how dead and frozen things seem, God is in contol. SPRING is around the corner. We cannot do anything to hold it back. Be encouraged! It is hard to have one foot in winter and another stepping toward spring. Hang in there. Be Patient. God will make a way! And he has gone before us. In his whole life on earth Jesus had one foot in Heaven and the other on earth. He knows!"

Human/Animal Bond

The human/animal bond will always be something that amazes me. Working with animals every day allows me to see this up close. The affection an animal holds for it's owner and vise versa is simply something special. We had another euthanasia today, the absolute worst part of my job, a golden retriever with cancer....every part of me ached for them...I've been there. I sit here in tears remembering my Sage. She was the most loyal dog you could ask for. She knew I'd saved her and the love she showed was completely unconditional. I know have another golden, Cassia, who shows this same love and devotion. I've often compared this love in my mind to the love Abba has for us and what we should have for him, he did save us after all. Now that can be a challenge as we all now, but it is never a challenge for our Great Big God. As I'm tossed by the storms raging in my life I feel as though God has manifested his love for us in the creatures He has placed in our care. I am so thankful for them. I think I'll go hug a puppy, the absolute best part of my job.

Exhausted is not even the word for what I'm feeling...

So I have been totally overwhelmed by this weekend... Tomorrow will be my first time leading the Auxiliary...I am truely humbled by being a part of this group let alone being President. I've been so busy lately I haven't had time to sit down and even begin to say what I'm feeling and yet it seems to come tumbling out of me a the strangest times. I get to speak again tomorrow at the convention. I am excited but almost too exhausted to care. I twittered that exhausted does not begin to cover how I'm feeling right now and I still have to put on a suit and high heels and do it one more day. A few hours and things go back to the relative normal. We'll see what the week brings. Sleep is way past due for this body.