Gravity

I don't think there are the right words to say why this song has me in it's grip this week. So just the lyrics...

Gravity by Sara Bareilles
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than
to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

CHORUS
Set me free,
leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall,
just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me
and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone.

CHORUS
Set me free,
leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am
and I stand so tall,
just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me
and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see
that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe
though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is
that you're keeping me down.

Something always brings me back to you,
It never takes too long.

I Am Not Alone

I had tagged this song earlier on Sunday for one that might be good when I was stumped about what song to use. Little did I know it would be the exact song that would minister to my heart in the dark hour that this night became. I am lonely. There just aren't any other words for what I feel. But my Abba met me tonight in that loneliness. He wrapped me in those arms and reminded me that he has promised to not let go. I was on my way to clean my wounds, literally, I fell on the concrete tonight and wiped out a plant :( I'm praying my dad can fix the poor thing tomorrow. I was sobbing and God reminded me "I am NOT alone". Abba you are so good.

I AM NOT ALONE NATALIE GRANT

You're Here
In My Heart
You're the Light
That Guides Me Through The Dark

You Walk Beside Me
The Night Seems Cold
Each Time I Fall
Your Arms Are There To Hold

[Chorus:]You Walk Beside Me
Giving Strength I've Never Known
I Am Not Alone
You Walk Beside Me

You're Here
In My Mind
I talk To You
And All My Fears Unwind
I Know I'm Loved For who I am
You Make Me Wanna Be The Best I can

[Repeat Chorus]

And I rely on your patience
When I face the unknown
And because of you
I am not alone

In the sun, In the rain
Through the good times and the pain
I reach out for your hand
I know that you understand

[Repeat Chorus]

Welcome to Wherever You Are

So, I'm a day late and it seems a dollar short. I've been watching softball games this week. It brings me such great joy to be called Aunt by Mandie's kids. I've been trying to get some good pictures for their scrapbooks and I think I'm succeeding. :) I got home from Z's game tonight. It was under the lights at 8. Talk about tired kids and parents. This song played on my player while I was talking to a friend. I've said recently that I'm on to a new chapter in life, but I wish I could read the end. This song made me stop and realize that I'm really where I'm supposed to be. Who knew Bon Jovi could be so profound. :) I know Mandie you knew :) and yes I know you love him lol. So here it is

Welcome to Wherever You Are--Bon Jovi
Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running to our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You're caught between just who you are and who you want to be
If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel drowning in a shadow of the dawn
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself not what other people say
When it seems you're lost alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different, just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be

Be who you want to be, be who you are
Everyone's a hero, everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God's make no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far(I say welcome)
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far (welcome)

Whatever You're Doing

This song has kinda been my theme song since everything went crazy almost a year ago. I had so much going on in my head and no idea how to deal with even a smidgen of it by myself. God has been so good. I'm heading into a new chapter of my life. It's definitely time for healing and to move on. :)

Whatever You’re Doing
by Sanctus Real
From the album We Need Each Other

It’s time for healing, time to move on,
it’s time to fix what’s been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong;
it’s time to find my way to where I belong

Chorus:
There’s a wave that’s crashing over me, and all I can do is surrender
Whatever You’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos, but somehow there’s peace
And it’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see,
but I’m giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone, time to begin again, re-evaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will or just climbing aimlessly over these hills?
So show me what it is You want from me I give everything – I surrender

Chorus:

Time to face up, clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out that I’ve wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears
Whatever You’re doing inside of me It feels like chaos, but I believe …

You’re up to something bigger than me
Larger than life, something heavenly
Whatever You’re doing inside of me It feels like chaos, but now I can see
This is something bigger than me Larger than life
Something heavenly, something heavenly
Time to face up, clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out

All the Broken Pieces

As always God blessed me on the trip to and from Malone tonight. I am constantly amazed at how He reaches out to me in the words of songs, even secular ones. As I listened to the songs that came on my Mp3 player as I drove God was saying daughter I'm here and then All the Broken Pieces by Matthew West started to play. Right now I feel I have no more tears to cry but I know God is in control. He called to me through this song and I gave Him the shattered pieces of my vase I know only He can make it whole again. Here are the words...
All the Broken Pieces by Matthew West

Did you feel, feel it break
From all the weight of your mistake?
You never knew how much it cost
Feels like your innocence is lost

So much for the perfect life
So much for the perfect day
It's like no matter how you try
Perfection's just too far away

So lift them up to Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

To Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces

Did you hear what I said?
Did you read the words I wrote down in red?
I was broken once for you
And no one loves you like I do

And that's the beauty of this grace
It can put the pieces back in place
And shine reflections of forgiveness
In a million different ways

So lift them up to Me
[ Matthew West Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

To Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

'Cause I can take even your greatest mistake
Every scar, every tear, every break
And I can turn it into something
More beautiful than you have ever seen

So lift them up to Me
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces

All your broken pieces
I'll put them back together, yeah
Are you broken, are you broken?

Just lift them up to Me
All the broken pieces
Give all the broken pieces of your life

To Me, yeah, yeah, yeah
All the broken pieces
All the broken pieces of your life

Lift them up to Me
Let Me carry you
I will take your pieces
And put them back together

Music-I Am Not Alone

So I'm going to start posting songs that God is using in my life or new favorties or songs that are affecting me at any given time. If you know me well you know that music is a huge part of my life. You also know I'm in a very dark time of life right now. I decided to clean tonight, long yucky to do list. I thought I'd crank the music while I did this, might keep me moving :) First song when I started my player was I Am Not Alone by Natalie Grant. Here are the lyrics:

You are here in my heart,
youre the light that guides me through the dark.
You walk beside me,
the night seems cold each time I fall,
Your arms are there to hold.
You walk beside me, giving strength Ive never known.

And I am not alone
You walk beside me.
(I am not alone)

You are here in my mind,
I talk to you and all my fears unwind.
I know Im loved, for who I am,
You make me want to be the best that I can.
And you walk beside me, giving strength Ive never known.

I am not alone,
You walk beside me.
I am not alone
whereever the road leads.

And I rely on your patience,
when I face the unknown.
And because of you, I am...
I am not alone...
I am not alone...oooh
Youre always beside me, yeah, I am not alone.

In the sun, In the rain
through the good times and
in the pain.
Youre always beside me,
I reach out for your hand,
I know that you understand.